Move or no????????????

I dont know what my issue is .. I lived in ny my whole life and am currently living here again now.When i was 16 i moved to fla with my cousin (hes 11 years older then me) his wife and there 3 kids..i lived there off and on from 16 til 19 im now 20 love it down there but like i said ive been in ny a year now and live with my b/f who is from fla also..im miserable here i have an apt now and hate it and the lease isnt up until next august however at the same time i dont want to go back b/c i have gotten used to my parents being 10 minutes away and also my b/f has a crazy ex in fla which is the reason we left in the first place! Also nothing will be the same me and my cousin havent talked in a year considering he claims i owed him money and talked behind his back and he wont talk to me i have tryed and tryed and get nothing however i miss the kids and his wife who im very close with and talk to all the time ..i have no friends here or anything and just sit here all the time now my other cousin who im very close with decided to go to florida today and live with them and im jealous b/c i wanna go and im mad that she left.... I want to move back to fla but im just so confused ..nothing will be the same again ..what should i do? plus my b/f is startin g to wanna go back to cus his family is down there also.. im lost help